1 Comment

Reflection for 15th Sunday in Ordinary Time

15th Sunday of the year

A middle-aged woman walked into the slums of a large city. She had two dollars in her purse, had no income, and no place to stay. All she had was deep conviction that God was calling her to doing something for the poor in that area. And she felt certain that, if the call was really from God, that he would provide all that was needed. She was convinced later that it was God calling her to do something special, thus she declared, ““I was to leave the convent and help the poor while living among them. It was an order. To fail would have been to break the faith.”

That woman was Mother Teresa. She founded the  Religious Order called  Missionaries of Charity, whose mission was to care for “the hungry, the naked, the homeless, the crippled, the blind, the lepers, all those people who feel unwanted, unloved, uncared for throughout society, people that have become a burden to the society and are shunned by everyone.” To date her legacy continues to flourish and cherished by many having over 4,500 sisters and is active in 133 countries in the world.

Friends, Mother Teresa is one of  the many ‘heroes’ of our Christian faith, who had really listened to the word of God, accepted it, embraced it, nurtured it. We know, that because of her willingness and openness to the word of God, she bore fruit a hundredfold. It was just because she accepted the word of God with an open heart, trusting that God will really provide whatever she needs in her mission to care for all people, regardless of color, race, religion, status, etc. She listened to the pleading of a dying person hanging on the cross, ‘I thirst.’ For her, this is the Word of God, and truly is. She listened to the word God faithfully and now we believe she is in  the company with the saints in heaven.

Our Gospel today  tells us of a parable of a God as a sower who  is sowing seeds on his field. This is a rather unusual gospel since here, Jesus explained the meaning of the parable, unlike the other parables in the gospels when the audience are expected to figure out what the parable means.

We know and our experience can affirm this, that God speaks to us in many and varied ways. Sometimes it’s hard to take in. Sometimes, it’s do-able, and sometimes impossible. Sometimes we might say, “God must be crazy,” if he wants us to do this or  to do that. But no, it is not the issue for God. The real issue is in us, on how we take in his words. As Jesus explained in the gospel, it depends on our disposition, on our attitude towards the word of God. True, we can say, “Oh it’s the only the saintly people who can take the word of God, with an open heart, with total trust and absolute acceptance.” Yes, it is difficult for us, but it is not impossible.

Furthermore, in our day and age, it is a big challenge to listen to the word of God very well. We have ‘google’ to answer our questions. We have shops to go to and to buy our needs and wants. We have places to go and enjoy and break the monotony of life. We have PC, i-phone, ipad, ipod, that would break our boredom by listening to music or whatever. So, what else do we need? Or we say, “I couldn’t hear God speaking to me or anything.” Yes, maybe because of all the different voices and noise in the world that hinder us from listening to God. Yet, no matter how loud the voice and noise of the world today, God’s voice always prevails. And we can tell this. No matter how rich we are, no matter how updated we are in terms of modern technologies, no matter how famous we are, no matter how safe we are, at the end of the day, especially when alone, we feel this inner longing, craving for something deeper and meaningful, we feel certain emptiness within.

This is for me God, calling us to a deeper union with him, to a personal relationship with him. He continually calls us everyday. He always speaks out his word to us everyday, in every aspect of our lives, in whatever we do, wherever we go, whoever we are. Whether we listen to it with open heart, or we play deaf to it, it always leaves something in us, as Isaiah would tell us today in the First Reading, “As the rain and the snow come from the heavens and do not return without watering the earth…so also with the word of God…”

How to listen the voice of God today amidst the different voices and noise in the world? Few Practical hints: 1. Get a Bible, read it not all at once as in a novel, but reflect on certain passage. 2. Spend some time with a good friend and talk about what’s happening in your life. 3. Reflect on your life’s experiences, go to a retreat or a recollection. 4. Review your life’s priorities. 5. Go to Church, and be one with the community, listening to God speaking in, through and on behalf of the assembly. 6. Develop a daily meditation on the Scriptures, or spiritual reading. 7. Read the Lives of the Saints.

There are just but few of the million other ways and means through which God speaks to us. Like Mother Teresa, we are invited to listen to God speaking to us in and through our unique, personal and individual circumstances, capacities and abilities. Likewise, we are also called to reflect on our attitude, our disposition towards God’s call for us. Let this be our prayer today. And if we accept God’s word with an open heart and respond to it faithfully, according to His will, we can be assured that He will be our guide, our counselor, our best friend, our provider, etc. Mother’ Teresa’s life is a concrete testimony of this faithful response to the word of God.

Leave a comment

A Chat with St Maria Goretti

A Chat with St Maria Goretti

Yesterday, we celebrate the memory of St Maria Goretti, a remarkable girl whose simple faith enabled her to gain the crown of being a virgin and a martyr. We are privileged to have her for a brief chat about her life and her faith.

JF: Thank you St Maria for this honour of chatting with you on this particular day for you and for the Church. Would you please tell us a bit about your life?

St Maria: Well, I was born in 1890 at Corinaldo, a small village, some thirty-miles from Ancona.  I was one of the five children of my parents Luigi Goretti and Assunta Carlini. My father raised us up by being a farm-labourer.

JF: And did you stay in that same village all your life?

St Maria: No, in 1896, the family moved to Colle Gianturo, near Galiano. But we didn’t stay there for long. We had to move to another place called Ferriere di Conca, close to Nettuno in the Roman Campagna.

JF: I assumed your father might have found work there, so you move?

St Maria: Not exactly, because once we got to our new place of residence, my  father was stricken with malaria and shortly later, he died.

JF: Oh I’m sorry to hear that.

St Maria: It was indeed a sorry situation for all of us. As a widow, my mum  had to take up his work to the best of her ability.

JF: I can sense that. I can surmise it must have been a very hard struggle for her.

St Maria: Certainly. Every small  coin and bit of food had to be looked at twice.

JF: Did you and the rest of your siblings help her to cope up in some ways?

St Maria: We did. In fact I kept on encouraging her to go on, cheering her up to keep up the faith and live.

JF: I  assumed by doing just that, your family had coped up quite well of  the loss of your father.

St Maria: To some extent yes. But for me, I had to overcome severe trials of faith in my time.

JF: For example, like what?

St Maria: One hot afternoon in July 1902, I was sitting at the top of the stairs in the cottage, mending a shirt, when a cart stopped outside and Alexander, our 18-year old neighbour came running up the stairs.

JF: What was he  up to?

St Maria: He seduced me to go to bed with him. But I refused to abide with his evil plan. Knowing that he couldn’t get me, he seized me, pulled me in the bedroom and shut the door behind him.

JF: Were you the only one in the house then? Did you try calling for help?

St Maria: I struggled and tried to call for help. But he strangled me, so my call for help could not really be heard well. But I indicated to him, as I gasped from his strangulation, that I would rather be killed than submit to his evil whims.

JF: Which he brutally did?

St Maria: Yes, he pulled my dress and started to strike me with his long dagger. I sank to the floor, as I continued pleading him to kill me rather than abusing me. I could still recall him plunging his dagger into my back and ran away.

JF: Had there been a witness for this terrible assault to you?

St Maria: That I could not be certain of. But I thought some people might have seen the crime. I could not remember there was an ambulance fetching me, but there must have been, since I woke up in the hospital.

JF: And did you think at that time that you would never really recover from what happened to you?

St Maria: I knew that I would never survive. What held me back was  that I was terribly worried of my mother’s welfare as she continued to raise my other siblings.

JF: But you did something remarkable there in the hospital there as well.

St Maria: Well,  I received with such joy and welcome the holy viaticum.

JF: And you also expressed your forgiveness to your murderer.

St Maria Goretti disclosed that she was really afraid of Alexander who had made some advancement to her prior to the incident. But she didn’t tell this to anyone, lest she could cause trouble with his family. Twenty-four hours after the assault, Maria Goretti died surrounded by her mother, the parish priest of Nettuno, a Spanish noblewoman and two nuns.

Her murderer Alexander was sentenced to 30 years  behind bars, and showed no regrets at all. But one night he dreamed that Maria Goretti appeared  gathering flowers and offering them to him. That changed him personally. He was released from prison after serving 27 years there. The first thing he did then was to go and seek Maria’s mother and asked for her forgiveness.

Pope Pius XII beatified here on April 27,1947.  The beatification ceremony was such a remarkable event since the Pope appeared on the balcony of St Peter’s later, accompanied by the then 82-year old Assunta Goretti [Maria’s mum], her two sisters and her brother. Three years after she was beatified, she was canonized as St of the Catholic Church by the same Pope, before the biggest crowd ever assembled for a canonization.

St Maria Goretti, Pray for us. 

2 Comments

Reflecting on John 21:1-14

As I skimmed through my notes and reflection or fruits of my thirty-day-retreat which I underwent 2 years ago, I found this meditation I had written on Jn 21:1-14. This was about Peter, after the death and Resurrection of Jesus. I wrote this is in a poetic form.

Peter said, “I am going fishing,”

                meaning he is going back to this old way of life.

The other disciples said, ‘We will go with you.’

               meaning they will do the same.

They went all night

            but they caught nothing. Their nets caught nothing.

Likewise, I  said, ‘I am going back to my old way of life.’

            So I start imagining the things I imagined before

            and I start doing the things I did before.

            But those things left me empty, guilty,

            ashamed, self-pity, self-hatred,

            hypocrisy, malice, etc.

And lo! Jesus appeared and asked his disciples,

            ‘You’ve caught nothing, have you?’

            ‘Cast the net to the right side of the boat.’

            And they caught plenty of fish.

Likewise, Jesus has given me a boat

            This [priestly] vocation I have now

            and those things I’ve done are not proper

            and not on the right side of my boat.

            They are however destructive to my boat,

            So I caught nothing all day, all night

            but emptiness and guilt and shame.

Jesus could have asked his disciples,

            ‘I have made you fishers of men already,

            why did you go back to your old way of life?’

Likewise, Jesus could have asked me,

           ‘I have already called you to follow me,

           why do you fail to cast the net on the right side

          of  your vocation? Why do you go back

          to your old way of life?’

Lord, help me to be faithful to my calling.

Help me to cast the net on the side of my boat

            of my vocation to the priesthood.

            Amen.

Leave a comment

Reflection for 14th Sunday of Ordinary Time 2011

14th Sunday of the year (In Ordinary time)

Yesterday I had a conversation with a cab driver from the train station to the seminary in Melbourne. He opened up the conversation by asking what am I doing in Melbourne. I said “ I am studying to be a Catholic priest.” He was surprised and shocked. He never thought and never heard that Catholic Priest has to study to become one. He said, in his religion, they don’t have to study because for them religion is more  of a feeling thing. He then revealed to me later that he belongs to a Sikh religion. We had a good talk about things, about faith, his faith and my faith within that short 15 minute-ride to my destination. But then he said something that really struck me. He said, he believes in God, and he’s sorry for those who don’t believe in God at all. He continued to say that he’s been driving a taxi for 4 years already. He said driving a  taxi is a hard job since he has to queue and wait for passengers and only get very little income out of it, plus he has to pay the operator.  But he declared he’s not worried much about the money, because He believes that God provides him everyday.

Friends, sometimes in life we think that money can assure us of everything. We dream sometimes if we’ve got enough money or more, we would do this charitable work, or go there, or do this and that. We  tend to think, money can buy everything including happiness. We tend to believe that with money, we can make the world go round. We sometimes think all that we need is money and the rest will follow.

But our human experience attests and tells us that money is really not the ultimate end and the motive of everything that we do and aspire to. If we’ve got money, been to a wonderful holiday, been to the places that we dream to be in, and so on, then we come back home, we still realise that there is something more, something deeper that we want, that we need, that we seek for. We crave for something that no money can buy.

Friends, this is God. Our Catechism of the Catholic Church tells us that God has written something in the innermost part of our heart- that is “longing for him.” That’s why no amount of worldly wealth or treasures can satisfy this longing, but God. St. Augustine has made this wonderful realization. After years of life in sin, of sexual promiscuity, of going astray, of living life in debauchery, he was graced and had undergone a complete transformation and declared, “My heart is restless, until it rests in God.” Then we know the rest of the story. Augustine lived the rest of  his life in service and in love of God.

If St Paul were to speak to St Augustine and the cab driver today, he would have affirmed them saying as in our First Reading today, “Your interests are not in the unspiritual, but in the spiritual, since the Spirit has made his home in you.”

I didn’t ask the cab driver what kind of God he believes in, but I can surmise, our Only One and True God is the one who makes him contented of his life and of what he does.

However, we are not just to wait for God to do something for us. We have to do our share. It is rather not with the attitude of a [good work = reward or bad thing= punishment]. But the attitude of dependence, trust in God- a child-like attitude- trusting that a child of God, He already knows what we need and what’s good for us. Just trust in him.

Sometimes in life, we feel that the world have tumbled over us, that we lose hope, no light, distressed, discouraged, depressed, disappointed, and more so we feel like we are being abandoned by God. Our gospel today would tell us that yes, these are normal human feelings and experience, but we would really be enslaved by these negativities, if we think  and try to console ourselves, that we can do everything on our own. No…If we can’t do anything on our own without God’s help in some way, we could not also try to solve all our problems on our own. This is why Jesus invites us in our gospel today, “Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder  my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls…”

Money is not the real God, so it can only give false hope, false rest, transient happiness, temporary contentment. The God in Jesus is the One true God, and He is the only one who can provide us with everlasting happiness, real rest and lasting contentment.

So as we continue our celebration today, let’s reflect on who really God is in our lives.  Is our attitude towards money helping us to enhance our relationship with our God, or is it driving us away from the true God?