Prayer of the Barley Boy Within…

Jesus, my Lord,

Please give me more of the spirit of the Barley Boy. I do not know whether you thanked him, personally,

for his barley loaves and fishes.

Perhaps you nodded his way as you said those words

that meant compassion on the many;

Perhaps you smiled so that he saw that you gave thanks to him,

as well as to your Father;

Perhaps you had some time to speak to him in private,

thanking him in your own words,

while your disciples were collecting all the leftovers…

I don’t know.

I do know he could see that his little gift of kindness

was taken up by you and made into magnificence.

Let me understand my ways of kindness this way.

I sometimes feel unnamed like that boy in your Gospel

-unnoticed, anyway.

The People of my world, so often, have so many needs,

so much discouragement and sickness,

such weariness,

so many reasons to give up.

What good, I wonder sometimes, is the little bit

that  I can do for them?

And also, I don’t see your smile, your word of thanks

for my version of the gifts of barley loaves and fishes.

I have to simply know, by faith,

that your great love

is something like my little loving deeds.

And your huge acts of mercy can somehow be understood

a little better

when I, and others, act in kindly ways.

Help me to be more thoughtful of my thoughtfulness.

Make sure I don’t compare my deeds

-which are, really, no big deal-

in such a fashion that I  begin to think

I give more than I get in life.

I have a certain number of gifts,

a certain group of friends and family,

a certain range of possibilities for good,

opportunities for kindness.

These are my barley loaves and fishes.

Let me give them as the gifts of my practical Christianity.

And let me, thanks to these,

rejoice more fully

in your greater gift  of nourishment to me.


2 comments on “Prayer of the Barley Boy Within…

  1. You are able to never say thank you sufficient over and over once more, but for myself and for your post, between it and myself, it is still a big thanks.

  2. Do you know what, this entry is probably your best for the present time. Words can’t describe how great it’s yet keep it up you should.

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